For a long time I had been feeling there was a book inside me but never went much further than joining a Nanowrimo writing challenge and never going so far as editing or completing it. People I knew kept telling me ‘Kelly you should write a book, your writing is good’, but I just nodded and got on with everyday living.
One day while watching a friend talk about her book something stirred. It came from envy. I did not have the income to get an editor, or a fancy cover designer. I read all the sites on self-publishing and thought I did not even have the basic income to make it as professional as I had seen on-line, but that didn’t stop me.
I made the decision on the anniversary of my father’s death to write a book.
When my father died in 2002, it had been such a painful experience for me. I had left my home-town to live in Gloucester in the UK. I left my family and all my friends and 3 weeks later my father died suddenly of a heart-attack and pneumonia at the young age of 52. In a way, writing this book was the start of a new chapter in my life, because when my father died I had carried a lot of emotion that caused me to more deeply believe I was worthless, useless and a pointless human being and that had lasted over 30 years. This book was going to be the beginning of letting that go and recognising the resources I had inside me that I could draw on at any time.
What was the book going to be about?
I had no idea.
I sat at the keyboard staring out of the window and nature outside became my inspiring guide. Each day for over 3 months I was committed to writing, for the first time in my life I was very committed. A great focus was coming through me and this had never happened in the 36 years prior. I wrote this book from a place of challenge. Each day challenging emotions arose within me from rage to sadness to jealousy to frustration. These emotions allowed me to dig deep and ask questions about how to live a more fulfilling life.
And so ‘When Everyone Shines But You‘ was born.